why?
What? Another project, you say? What about My Destroyer, or BFX, or damn Kissing Chaos? The question on everyone's lips. Why start something when other projects are still unfinished. I prefer the term ongoing.
Firstly, I know it's bad for business. I know it's not the proper thing to do, that is, working on new projects while others seemingly fall by the wayside. But I've learned over the past little while, that the business, and thinking in those terms was not helping me as a creator. Too many times I've been allowing hyper rational trains of thought control the things I do, and when I do them. I feel my art and writing has suffered due to this.
I know it seems like a lame excuse, as many other people can successfully juggle art and business and carve a career out of the remains. I was able to do that for a few years, and was ultimately unhappy and unsatisfied. That's why I've resolved my self to make change. I'm taking action. I'm sort of putting good business decisions on the back-burner, and doing what's best for the art and writing that I'm creating.
Up until now, I've felt alot of the work I've cared about has been less than par, because I've been rushing to hit deadlines, or made unrealistic goals for myself, all under the guise of calculated business moves. And most of those moves, when I look at the big picture, have short term results. I'm looking for longevity, not instant success. I want to create art/work/writing that will stand the test of time, not just be a flash in the pan. So it may take me a number of years to finish My Destroyer or Kissing Chaos. But when they are finished, you know for damn sure they will be the best I could make them. Hell, it took Salinger 10 years to write The Catcher in the Rye.
One of the things that has bubbled to the surface during this period of change, is the realization that I was trying to fit into the industry/business of art and writing, which may seem wise and career building, but was never part of my goals. I just wanted to create, sans business. I'm willing to become a "starving artist" to make it happen, rather than live a life I never wanted. So that's what I'll do, lest I become one of those guys who wakes up 30 one day, and realizes he wasted his life. I just wanted to create.
So I will create.
ADC
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Firstly, I know it's bad for business. I know it's not the proper thing to do, that is, working on new projects while others seemingly fall by the wayside. But I've learned over the past little while, that the business, and thinking in those terms was not helping me as a creator. Too many times I've been allowing hyper rational trains of thought control the things I do, and when I do them. I feel my art and writing has suffered due to this.
I know it seems like a lame excuse, as many other people can successfully juggle art and business and carve a career out of the remains. I was able to do that for a few years, and was ultimately unhappy and unsatisfied. That's why I've resolved my self to make change. I'm taking action. I'm sort of putting good business decisions on the back-burner, and doing what's best for the art and writing that I'm creating.
Up until now, I've felt alot of the work I've cared about has been less than par, because I've been rushing to hit deadlines, or made unrealistic goals for myself, all under the guise of calculated business moves. And most of those moves, when I look at the big picture, have short term results. I'm looking for longevity, not instant success. I want to create art/work/writing that will stand the test of time, not just be a flash in the pan. So it may take me a number of years to finish My Destroyer or Kissing Chaos. But when they are finished, you know for damn sure they will be the best I could make them. Hell, it took Salinger 10 years to write The Catcher in the Rye.
One of the things that has bubbled to the surface during this period of change, is the realization that I was trying to fit into the industry/business of art and writing, which may seem wise and career building, but was never part of my goals. I just wanted to create, sans business. I'm willing to become a "starving artist" to make it happen, rather than live a life I never wanted. So that's what I'll do, lest I become one of those guys who wakes up 30 one day, and realizes he wasted his life. I just wanted to create.
So I will create.
ADC
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www.mydestroyer.com
All text (c) 2006 Arthur Dela Cruz
www.kissingchaos.com
posted by ADC at 4:50 AM
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